Deserve

Live for the wants,

forget other's needs,

Desire for flaunts,

while only you succeed,

Live for today,

don't consider tomorrow,

Others lives a shade of gray,

while you won't let anyone borrow,

Enough of your precious earnings,

to buy a mere meal,

Only consider your yearnings,

can you even feel?

You want so much,

yet give so little,

Just one soft touch,

to those you belittle,

Always get, 

never give,

You'll always regret,

not letting other people live,

So sit and observe,

those you do care,

Maybe you don't deserve,

All that money and flair,

I like to think,

about what I should get,

But they never quite link,

with my gaining debt,

I know there's so many things,

that I could do,

But with nature's springs,

they just never come true,

I laugh, 

and I cry,

Though on my behalf,

I don't deserve the reply,

That karma gives to me,

whenever it comes my way,

It listens to my plea,

and most always makes my day,

Its given me love,

and my true art,

I have plenty to brag of,

yet on my part,

I don't think its me,

who earns all these pleasures,

Yet I'm filled with glee,

I'm given all these treasures,

I like to think,

being humble's enough,

Though it's pushing the brink,

when I've got all this stuff,

I like to think those who are concerned,

yet never do swerve,

Get what they earned,

That they get what they deserve. 

Sitting in the Silence

You look at me,

I look at you,

There's nothing either one of us can do.

We wait and wait,

for something better,

neither one of us wants to be the trend setter.

No one wants,

to speak up,

but if they took a close-up.

They would find,

we want to fix,

what our little lives depict.

Miserable and shamed,

to boot,

we wish we knew another route.

Some people say,

they're just like us,

but do they fight, and cry, and cuss?

About where their going,

how they'll survive,

without their life going on a tumultuous dive.

The next time,

I hear one of them,

going on and on about how their life's so condemned.

I know exactly,

what I'll ask, 

to see if their feelings I can unmask.

Do you ever find yourself out in crowds,

feeling as if you're the only one there?

Do you ever find yourself alone with your music,

because you think no one cares?

Do you ever find yourself ignoring the world,

because you think that they're ignoring you?

Do you ever find yourself on the computer,

even though there's no one to talk to?

And do you ever find yourself amidst the noise,

yet sitting in the silence?

Never Forget

We once were those girls,

who never broke apart,

Wearing long fake pearls,

and breaking little boys hearts,

We laughed and we cried,

but always together,

We'd be friends till we died,

from now till forever,

But friendships can fade,

and new ones can bloom,

The more friends we made,

the closer we came to doom,

Farther apart we grew, 

it ended way too fast,

Away we flew,

nothing ever seems to last,

Beyond these adolescent years,

of drama and stress beyond,

Beyond these middle school tears,

if only I could wave a wand,

To bring us back to those old times,

Of dress-up and make believe,

I only hope that as time climbs,

you'll never forget me.

What Used To Be

Remember all the times we shared? 

The laughs we laughed?

The games we played?

The boys we chased? 

The fights we had?

The dreams we had?

The plans we made?

The laughs we laughed,

at a million corny jokes.

The games we played,

but we never seemed to finish.

The boys we chased,

that you always caught.

The fights we had,

over the littlest things.

The dreams we had,

of being best friends forever.

And the plans we made,

to stick at one another's side.

But those joke's seemed too lame.

And the games got too old.

The boys stopped having cooties.

And the fights turned to silence.

The dream seemed to fade.

And the plans might not come true.

I still stop to think,

About what we used to do,

I like to think,

you do, too.

I like to think,

You think of me.

I like to think,

you think of what we used to be.

Until You

All I'd ever known, 

Is a broken heart that beats only for blood.

All I'd ever felt,

Is a wounded soul that is internally lonely.

All I'd ever loved,

Is the faint glimpses of happiness that hold nothing to the way I feel with you,

I'd only known,

the pain of barely surviving until I met the life of loving so dearly,

All I'd ever known,

All I'd ever felt,

All I'd ever loved,

And I'd ever known means nothing until I met you.

Until you,

My heart never beat with the excitement of someone near.

Until you,

My lonely soul did not feel complete.

Until you, 

I never felt the joy of love,

Until I met you, 

I never knew what it was like to live.

You and I

Leave your worries,

Leave your care, 

Let go for tonight, 

Just us and the air,

Escape the rush,

Escape the fear,

Just you and me, 

No one can hear,

Forget who you are,

Forget who I am, 

We belong you and I, 

Don't worry about them,

Feelings entwined,

Lips intersect,

Live in this moment,

Just one second perfect,

Relax,

It's just me,

Together you and I,

We're meant to be,

So forget about them, 

It's just you and I,

Our love and our feelings,

The stars and the sky.

Confused

Confused in this world,

Of hope and despair,

It's so hard to breathe,

Just need a gasp of air,

To keep me alive,

On this cold, lonely path,

Alone I must walk,

To face the world's wrath,

Not sure if I'll make it,

Not even halfway,

I just keep going,

Keep going day by day,

They tell me I'll make it,

But them I don't believe,

Only the harsh ones,

Who make me want to leave,

Leave this path that I'm walking,

As slow as can be,

I can only hope that at the end,

I'm still the same old me.