Remembrance

Remember . . .

when childhood innocence encompassed us all?

when you'd never catch a friend holding a knife to your back?

or when you colored pictures for the love of your life that his mom always saved?

and when homework time was spent getting groceries with Mommy?

when you went to church every Sunday, and never questioned what you were told?

when afternoons were spent waiting on Daddy to get home from work, and call you his little girl?

and when dinners were eaten as a family?

or even when visits to the nursing home were just every days?

when you used to be so sad, it hurts to think about it now?

the person you used to be, you'd never be now?

or the grandpa, who played your first video games with you, while everyone else went to your

grandma's oncologist?

But somehow . . .

innocence left us all,

some friends never sit their knives down,

loving guys no longer involves crayons and paper,

moms don't need groceries to buy fast food,

questions are the only thing in your head at church,

Daddy became a dad, and he never stops talking about how his little girl grew up so fast,

family dinners are a thing of the distant past,

there isn't anyone to visit at the nursing home anymore,

sadness fades away,

people change, and that includes you,

oncology appointments don't last forever, and neither do grandparents.

In remembrance of the good times, and the bad, of yesterday, and the hope for tomorrow.

Live your life in a way that the remembrance makes you smile.

Love

Love feels like

hope,

despair,

and the most extreme happiness you could ever imagine

But this happiness

is held together

by a single, weak piece of thread

that you hold

that you could break in the blink of an eye

causing my heart to tumble to the ground like a million tiny shards of glass

But love is also the trust

the trust that

no matter how thin that thread gets

or how tempting it would be to break it

You don't

because when you're in love

the other persons heart

means more to you

than your own

I Have Music

Listen to the music

Play the rhythm

Of my soul

Press the gentle keys

To release

The great unknown

Mystify the followers

Who know nothing

Of its past

Pied Piper

I am

To only my own heart

Leave the world

Behind me

To find where I belong

Searching

For a miracle

In such a simple song

Waiting

For the notes

To slowly take me away

Wishing

For a chance

On just another day

Music laughs

Music cries

Music even calls my name

When I'm lonely

And have no where to go

I have music

When I'm stressed

And just can't seem to flow

I have music

When I'm happy

And want to tell the world

I have music

When I don't know

About events unfurled

I have music

Or, now, when I'm falling in love

And reality is like a dream

I still have music

Because life is never what it seems

I Do, Too

It's been a day

A day when everything goes wrong

A day when the sun seems to hide

A day that seems to drag along

But then I think

And think of you

It's like magic

There's nothing so true

Because you make me laugh

And you make me smile

Even on those days

Life tastes so vile

Just one word

Just one look

That's all it takes

To get me hooked

You don't know

How you make my day

Every time

You look my way

You'd never guess

How you make me feel

You don't know

The wounds you heal

From one sentence

Or one smile

It never fails

To last awhile

Some people tell me

That you're "just"a boy

But would "just" a boy

Fill me with joy?

So, look my way

And make my day

Or, talk awhile

And make me smile

Maybe smile at me

So I'm filled with glee

You leave me smiling,

Glowing,

Loving every minute of the day

Just because you're you

But I can only hope

Only wish

Only dream

That I do, too.

Together Forever in Love

There's something here,

Something in me,

Something in you,

Something we can't see,

I can't describe it,

And neither can you,

Whatever it is,

I only wish I knew,

They can see it,

But we can't,

They can tell,

And they rant,

In their secret ways,

About what they see,

See in us,

See in you and me,

We don't see it,

But we think it,

We feel it,

We live it,

Everyday,

Every hour,

Every minute of the day,

It's us,

It's part of us now,

Now and forever in our mind,

Now and forever in our hearts,

In our life whatever we leave behind,

It changes me,

It confuses you,

But whatever it does,

We both know it's true,

We're in this together,

Together you and me,

Together forever,

That's all it will be,

That's all I want,

Our names on a lock,

That's all I can see,

As the time ticks on the clock,

I want to see it happen,

I want to be with you,

I want my life to be,

Flying in the blue,

My life would be a flight,

And I would be a dove,

We're meant to be together,

Together forever in love.

Wherever Life Takes Me

Wandering a trail,

Speeding through my life,

Living in the moment,

Forgetting all my strife,

Going day-by-day,

Crave to sometimes stop,

To turn this fast pace down,

To take a nice slow drop,

But yet I want to go,

To continue living on,

Faster moving forward,

Forget the life that's gone,

Tomorrow's turn into yesterday's,

And years quickly going by,

Leaving what I used to be,

And now learning how to fly,

Life speeds on,

And life goes fast,

Sometimes I,

Just want to make it last,

Armed with knowledge,

And a friend,

You never know,

How it will end,

Life can change,

And change it will,

Aim for the stars,

So wishes you'll fulfill,

Turn the page,

Each one is key,

I'm going,

wherever life takes me.

Fly Away

I close my eyes,

And rock to sleep,

Trying to ignore,

My feelings so deep,

Trying to leave them,

Far, far away,

Trying to forget,

And to go far astray,

Move away from my worries,

Move away my cares,

Leave this world,

And move on to the air,

To forget all my worries,

To forget all my fears,

Into my mind,

A life without tears,

Sometimes I wish,

With the stress,

With the problems,

With the simple facts of life,

I could leave,

I could go,

And I could fly,

Fly away.

Looking

Looking for the key,
To a door that can't be found,
Searching for a door,
To which there is no room,

Swimming through the ocean,
Trying to find a desert,
Walking through the city,
Trying to find the farm,

Living my life,
Just trying to find the meaning,
Going through the days,
Just trying to see what's happening,

I'm looking for the question,
That I know has no answer,
I'm looking for the answer,
To a question never asked,

My life is one big question,
But I can't find the answer,
It may be around the corner,
Or merely down the street,

It could be someone's love,
Or a caring touch,
It could be one moment,
In a coffee shop,

But when I find that key,
I know I'll see the door,
And when I find that door,
I know it'll have a room,

And when I find that desert,
I'll know exactly why it's there,
And when I find that farm,
I'll know exactly where the cows are,

One day I'll find my meaning,
And what is happening,
But until that very day,
Where ever it may be,

I only know,
What I know,
And until then,
I'm just looking.

Just Another Day

Remember the pull of my heart,

As it stretched out to meet you,

Surrounding you with all I could give,

The love that I felt,

No greater could be found,

If you had searched the entire world,

But love can twist and turn,

Can change in a wink,

Can expand or shrink,

Without a moment's notice,

It can be gone,

I don't want to lose it,

To lose what we have,

I don't want to change,

What I waited for,

I don't want to wish,

I had done something else,

I don't want to hope,

It will turn for the better,

I just want to help,

To patch up this break,

I just want to save our love,

For just another day.

Flying

I wait and wait,
to hear from you,
I feel like such bait,
to what you can do.

But, hearing from you,
makes everything better,
After what I've been through,
you're love's like a sweater.

It makes me feel warm,
and it makes me feel pretty,
I'm safe from the storm,
and I'm out of the pity.

I'm happy with you,
and I'm not longer crying,
I'm into the blue,
and believe it, I'm flying.

Deserve

Live for the wants,

forget other's needs,

Desire for flaunts,

while only you succeed,

Live for today,

don't consider tomorrow,

Others lives a shade of gray,

while you won't let anyone borrow,

Enough of your precious earnings,

to buy a mere meal,

Only consider your yearnings,

can you even feel?

You want so much,

yet give so little,

Just one soft touch,

to those you belittle,

Always get, 

never give,

You'll always regret,

not letting other people live,

So sit and observe,

those you do care,

Maybe you don't deserve,

All that money and flair,

I like to think,

about what I should get,

But they never quite link,

with my gaining debt,

I know there's so many things,

that I could do,

But with nature's springs,

they just never come true,

I laugh, 

and I cry,

Though on my behalf,

I don't deserve the reply,

That karma gives to me,

whenever it comes my way,

It listens to my plea,

and most always makes my day,

Its given me love,

and my true art,

I have plenty to brag of,

yet on my part,

I don't think its me,

who earns all these pleasures,

Yet I'm filled with glee,

I'm given all these treasures,

I like to think,

being humble's enough,

Though it's pushing the brink,

when I've got all this stuff,

I like to think those who are concerned,

yet never do swerve,

Get what they earned,

That they get what they deserve. 

Sitting in the Silence

You look at me,

I look at you,

There's nothing either one of us can do.

We wait and wait,

for something better,

neither one of us wants to be the trend setter.

No one wants,

to speak up,

but if they took a close-up.

They would find,

we want to fix,

what our little lives depict.

Miserable and shamed,

to boot,

we wish we knew another route.

Some people say,

they're just like us,

but do they fight, and cry, and cuss?

About where their going,

how they'll survive,

without their life going on a tumultuous dive.

The next time,

I hear one of them,

going on and on about how their life's so condemned.

I know exactly,

what I'll ask, 

to see if their feelings I can unmask.

Do you ever find yourself out in crowds,

feeling as if you're the only one there?

Do you ever find yourself alone with your music,

because you think no one cares?

Do you ever find yourself ignoring the world,

because you think that they're ignoring you?

Do you ever find yourself on the computer,

even though there's no one to talk to?

And do you ever find yourself amidst the noise,

yet sitting in the silence?

Never Forget

We once were those girls,

who never broke apart,

Wearing long fake pearls,

and breaking little boys hearts,

We laughed and we cried,

but always together,

We'd be friends till we died,

from now till forever,

But friendships can fade,

and new ones can bloom,

The more friends we made,

the closer we came to doom,

Farther apart we grew, 

it ended way too fast,

Away we flew,

nothing ever seems to last,

Beyond these adolescent years,

of drama and stress beyond,

Beyond these middle school tears,

if only I could wave a wand,

To bring us back to those old times,

Of dress-up and make believe,

I only hope that as time climbs,

you'll never forget me.

What Used To Be

Remember all the times we shared? 

The laughs we laughed?

The games we played?

The boys we chased? 

The fights we had?

The dreams we had?

The plans we made?

The laughs we laughed,

at a million corny jokes.

The games we played,

but we never seemed to finish.

The boys we chased,

that you always caught.

The fights we had,

over the littlest things.

The dreams we had,

of being best friends forever.

And the plans we made,

to stick at one another's side.

But those joke's seemed too lame.

And the games got too old.

The boys stopped having cooties.

And the fights turned to silence.

The dream seemed to fade.

And the plans might not come true.

I still stop to think,

About what we used to do,

I like to think,

you do, too.

I like to think,

You think of me.

I like to think,

you think of what we used to be.

Until You

All I'd ever known, 

Is a broken heart that beats only for blood.

All I'd ever felt,

Is a wounded soul that is internally lonely.

All I'd ever loved,

Is the faint glimpses of happiness that hold nothing to the way I feel with you,

I'd only known,

the pain of barely surviving until I met the life of loving so dearly,

All I'd ever known,

All I'd ever felt,

All I'd ever loved,

And I'd ever known means nothing until I met you.

Until you,

My heart never beat with the excitement of someone near.

Until you,

My lonely soul did not feel complete.

Until you, 

I never felt the joy of love,

Until I met you, 

I never knew what it was like to live.

You and I

Leave your worries,

Leave your care, 

Let go for tonight, 

Just us and the air,

Escape the rush,

Escape the fear,

Just you and me, 

No one can hear,

Forget who you are,

Forget who I am, 

We belong you and I, 

Don't worry about them,

Feelings entwined,

Lips intersect,

Live in this moment,

Just one second perfect,

Relax,

It's just me,

Together you and I,

We're meant to be,

So forget about them, 

It's just you and I,

Our love and our feelings,

The stars and the sky.

Confused

Confused in this world,

Of hope and despair,

It's so hard to breathe,

Just need a gasp of air,

To keep me alive,

On this cold, lonely path,

Alone I must walk,

To face the world's wrath,

Not sure if I'll make it,

Not even halfway,

I just keep going,

Keep going day by day,

They tell me I'll make it,

But them I don't believe,

Only the harsh ones,

Who make me want to leave,

Leave this path that I'm walking,

As slow as can be,

I can only hope that at the end,

I'm still the same old me.

In...

My heart beats fast,

yet I still see his flaws.

My dreams have his face,

yet I know he breaks laws.

I feel like I know him so well, 

yet we barely even talk.

I love so many little things,

yet I criticize his walk.

He makes my butterflies sing,

yet some of them are wary.

He's changed my point of view,

yet my friends opinions vary.

He makes my head spin around just to see his face,

yet I'm not the only one of the same.

I know others like me, 

yet compared to him I'm just lame.

So many feelings,

In so many ways,

I only wish I knew what I was in...

People

People change, 

And people differ, 

Some may loosen,

Some may become stiffer.

People hurt, 

And people cry,

Some may rejoice,

While some may lie.

People relax,

And people tighten,

They may have laughs,

Or they may whiten.

People spread gossip,

And people harm others,

One person's business, 

May become another's.

People succeed,

And people win,

They can kick goals,

Or slide on their skin.

People are different,

and people are unique,

They can be loud,

Or they can be meek.

People are people,

And people are real,

They'll always make mistakes,

And sorrow they'll feel.

But next time you're human,

And can't help, but feel sad,

Remember the people,

And how they're not all bad.

My Path

I left my path,

The one I've traveled all these years, 

I've wandered off my road,

Oh, baby, here come the tears.

Which road do I explore next?

Some are too late to take,

Some just can't be conquered,

I guess it's time to break,

This fast paced life I love,

I guess it's time to rest,

Joyous times turned to bores,

Some would say I was blessed,

But I truly think I'm cursed,

No path to follow,

No road to take,

A difficult pill to swallow,

Maybe one day I'll find,

Another trail I love,

That I can hope to join one day,

Though there are none I can think of,

For now my life has slowed,

Left me missing my path,

My life has slowed and slowed,

I hope I won't face the wrath,

Of leaving hopes of joy behind, 

Joyous things no more to do,

I really miss that path I traveled,

I'm sure you would, too.